又一次华语的表达我现在的心情。。
你知道我现在很犹豫吗？
我不知道要去什么学校，什么课程等等。。
以前都不须我来选课程的，都是老师帮我选的。
我觉得好不想离开高中哦！
没有烦恼的过每一天，每一年。。
最不想拥有的现在就要我决定，我该怎么办啊？
每次想到我的未来就像快疯了一样！
我有梦想可是不是很理想啊！
我想去寻找我的偶像，成为明星。
可是，我不能只向着这个念头走。。
我该找找我的事业，一个能让我父母安心好过的事业。
帮助他们赚大钱！

想成为设计师，可是这工作换在外国就很发达啦，在这里不是很好呢！我要设计衣服，屋内设计，图画设计。。
这都是我喜欢的。那我该往哪走？
哎哟，快爆了啦！！有人能来救救我嘛？

可能再给我一段日子我能做出最好的决定！
希望朋友们，家人和我网友们能给我一些些意见呐！


除了这，我还有一个非常犹豫的事！我的心不知怎么总是想往他那走。。
每次看到他，我都会想和他谈天或说说话。。可是就是没有哪个机会和他说声“嗨！”
你看，我有多么的犹豫啊。。不知是不是真的喜欢他了。
希望这只是想和他交好友。。这种感觉很奇怪，就像想看他可是当看到他时就不想了
你们说啊，这是什么感觉啊？对他好感吗？
我听朋友说是我喜欢他，所以会害羞才不想见他或怕他嫌弃我等等。
噢！想起了！有一晚突然梦见他，那个梦非常奇怪也有点色啦！
不说了啦，不然让他知道了我很丢脸咽！
就很突然梦见的啦，应该想念他吧？


Hmmm，还有我也很想念高以翔啊，怎么没他的消息了？
他没有新戏剧吗？还是杂志等？
我知道我只能当他的粉丝或他是我的偶像而已，
因为我们的高度和年龄。
如果我是明星那有多好啊，和他见面的机会更大叻！
我一定要努力成为明星和他接触。。^^

Phew, just jump over the wall of Sejarah!
The third day of SPM, yeah is it SPM.
But I don't feel like treating it as SPM.
There's no reason and don't ask me why.
Aha! Remind me of En.A. *dont ask me why*
Hmm, the previous subjects were okay and great.
Only Sejarah the only subject which I cant get high marks and not confident.
Sometimes feel so upset and embarrassing because others peeps can get pass or A but I can't.
I can't say that Im useless, because this is not important for me in my heart.
Therefore I cant take it serious and concentrate.
Some might be thinking that Im wrong but everyone have their ways and opinion.
My opinion is anything not important for me I wont take it serious and remember it.

Well, let's talk about today.
Everyone knows that once finish the paper can leave the class.
For the first paper there's not many people came out from the class before the times up.
However, the second paper was so many people went out in my class.
Almost quarter of my class people went out before the times up.
The first was Jesslyn, everyone followed her.
She always be the first to leave.
Like Paper 1 too, but I din't went out for this.
Only second paper I really can't stand for it and so freaking headache of thinking it.
Once I saw the questions, I really can't answer it.
I'm so afraid that I will get 0 for this paper.
Then at the first moment we start the paper, I planned to go out the class at 11.45am.
At least I got more time to check and crap in the paper.
until that time I really can't crap anything and think of anything bout' Sej.
As you know, my memory is not good unless I understand the whole book.
I use to memorize the notes instead of understanding it.
If I have to understand it, I should start earlier and not yesterday!
Well, well, well, it's over. FINALLY.

So happy that's over but suddenly comes a unlucky things to me.
My teeth is so pain, actually not the teeth is the "meat of the teeth".
Skin of the teeth larh!
At the very end of my left row teeth.
I can't really chew the food and sometimes talk also difficult.
Now still in the pain!
Maybe this week too many chocolates and less drink water.
So I keep drinking water just now.
Keep going to toilet! Argh, annoying pee!

I think that's all for today.
Have to prepare for next Monday exam - Mathematics.
I have to get A, No, I must get A.
The best subject for me to get an A.
Wish me good luck ya! ^^

Today is 111110 ♥ ♥ A beautiful Thursday.
As usual, I went to school but grandpa fetch me.
Went to school and there was so empty.
Usually, there will be a lot people crowding at the stair and the seat beside the stair at block C.
But, today was so different.
And this happened once in this year which is today.
Our class only 6 people went.
Imagine how empty is it! Everyone knows today have to stab the table onto another one.
So they're not manage to go to school.
They purposely! Argh, only 2 boys here in our class!
Girls can't really do everything in the class okay!
Thank god, Pn.Grace asked 5Ix's boys to help us.
See! Other people helped us and what did our class people do? Nothing.
Only 6 of us did it all, stabbing the table, take off those decorations on the board and sweep the floor.
Of cause, I'm the one who sweep. That's always my job Argh!

Before recess, 6 of us went to library study and chit chat too.
I prefer staying in the librarian, it gives me mood to study.
Maybe because of those books on the rack.
And yeah, cantin was so empty but not really "very empty".

In the morning, I heard from the radio.
They said today was 111110 and says everything will happened with 1.
Yeah, I don know. When they said only I realize it was 11.11.10.
Otherwise I will just blur! @.@

Today is just so normal.
School day, not holiday, weekday, not-so-sunny day, boring day.
There's nothing special happen. :D
Teehee ^^