Try to see and solve the problems in different angles, then you will not suffer and stress for everything. You may have your own opinion and personality but sometimes, you can try to see things in different angle then you will find that it's much better than what you thought. I'm a person which can see things in a lot of angles but this is also my weakness because I will think a lot before making action. "Should, or Shouldn't I do it?" Everyone may face a lot of problems and they have their own ways to solve it. But, think of another angle; How if you have a problems that you can't even make decisions and it have both advantages and disadvantages? That's what my topic is about today.
Just wish to know what's actually people nowadays are thinking. I just can't understand them when they make such a decisions or action that I can't accept it.
I know, it's not my business, what for I've been so stress of figuring it out? Yes, we have curiosity and we wan't to know more if there is no harm.
I'm always regret after making a serious action but it's not harmful but I will be suffering in it. I can't give an example on it but seriously why do we being like this? Is it that life is tough so we have to face everything, no matter what?

No, don't misunderstand what I'm feeling now. I'm not suffering or stress of something else related. I'm just want to know why? There's a lot of "WHY" in my heart or brain.
LALALA, I'm always happy girl and I don't face big problem like what the adult's facing outside the big world. I feel like I'm a little girl that I don't understand much about things outside the world.
There's a guy that always think everything only in his own angle. He did not ever feel of other's feeling or maybe just not asking people to listen to him. It's actually hard for me to explain about this guy.
He is good but he lose in his attitude.
He know what he is doing and he thinks he know a lot and he able to handle everything.
Seriously, he can be real man if he don't have such attitude. Everything is all about his attitude that makes him stress out and suffer all the time.
He don't know about it, I think? He always say he has to think a lot a lot like a stack of thousand pages' books. He can choose to not thinking it actually. Everyone is able to choose your own decision yourself without asking anyone permission.
I know sometimes you just can't control and you will think it. But, why not think in another angle? If that you can choose to not thinking and stressing about it, why not to choose to go happy and stop bother about it??
I know what you would be thinking now; "who you think you are you can talk so much about this and do you have experience and how much you know about the world?"
I'm not thinking I'm smart or anything.
I just want to tell that you can choose your own path in your life and not wait for the god to lead you, or maybe not.
Even I'm venting here he might not know its him or maybe he don't read my blog at all. I just need a place to speak out if even just typing..

The another news I want to announce is I'm now a jobless girl. I quit the company myself. Reason not because of the company not good or anything.
It's all because myself, me.. Currently unable to work for a full time now due to some trips around the corner and other things going on in my house and bla bla bla.
Soon, I'm starting my Degree soon so yeah, no job.
Looking for Part time Interior designer/ 3D visualizer/ 2D drawings and etc that is related to Interior Design.
I will find hard and earn more for my parents that giving me a chance to continue my Degree after spending a lot for my Diploma, my hair, clothes and etc..
If you have any, or your friends or you know anyone do let me know. (: Email or Insta me!
Today suddenly got the feel to post in mandarin~
好的,最近我发生了什么事叻?我觉得我自己越来越有问题~
就变成了“有问题晓琳”囖~ 哈哈,好笑吗?不!!!
算了啦,很快很快我就会回到我以前~“开心的我”了。。
最近都在忙我大学的功课啊!!虽然我看起来很得空每天都上网~
其实我都在赶功课叻~可是都是在 last minute 的所以会比较辛苦咯!
可是说说,我最近都发生很多事~加上自己脑力胡思乱想~
让自己不停地头痛啊!这叫做自己拿来的!!
这么久了,我还是在犯自己的坏习惯啊!!每次做什么事情就算三思还是会后悔,为什么啊~??
可是最近都在做model(interior)的~不是那些模特儿啦!!
我告诉我爸,他竟然以为我做模特儿!笑到我肚子痛了~
这是我朋友的,好可爱的房间哦~我好喜欢呢!!
这是我班的两个马来妹一起做的~她们说到好像很伟大因为她们说“她们两个人做的,只有两个人!”
昨天才刚剪了头发可是看起来好像没减叻!!
明明就看到他剪很多了可是完后,却好像我以前的头发!!气死了啦!!
感觉好浪费钱哦~ 虽然朋友帮我付可是还是很失落啦!
怪自己不够担子去剪我要的发型!!

这就是我要剪的发型可是我怕我剪得不美~
加上我头发不适合有刘海~所以就算剪也不会有像图片一样的刘海!
看看这个是不是很短呢?我头发很长叻~要我剪到这样是一种很大的决定。。
因为我以前啊,头发都很难留长现在可以很容易却不敢!
所以我才会那么后悔咯~我应该试试的!
哎哟!过了啦,别想别想~

我觉得这张好好笑哦~我用ipad拍得ok吗?
在理发店里好冷咯~幸亏有“包着我”~ 哈哈!
我在做treatment的时候~ 好闷咯!姐又听不到我说话因为我们都在treament,那treatment机很大声!
然后就一直玩ipad了!哈哈~我还记得那发型师问我有没有染头发叻!
我真的真的没有叻~只是烫直头发太多次了所以头发脱色~
我以前的头发都是褐色的可是就不明显的啦~现在变得像是highlight头发一样~
一直被误会啦!所以说啊,我喜欢我的natural~
甚至我的外表我也喜欢natural!

这是我和姐剪头发后的样子哦~是不是觉得我们很像叻?哈哈~
事实就是我们好像没有剪对吧?
他剪我的发型而我只剪那么的一点点~唉~
真的啦!好不舍得剪嘛~我头发后面很美我喜欢只是前面气死我而已!
真的搞不懂为什么我每次烫了前面还是会卷的咯!
这就是不能剪刘海的原因啦!
以前小时候的我头发都不是自然卷的~突然到了不懂什么时候就开始卷起来了~
还得我每一年都必须去烫头发~我的钱啊~~

我越来越喜欢大学了叻~朋友都好好叻~
我也好想念我的旧同学了~
想念我以前傻乎乎的样子,不懂事的我~active的我~~
现在的我还是一样可是就比较懂事了,我开始学会什么是对什么是错~
也学会了什么应该问,什么事是要绕个圈来问和什么不应该问~
我是不是有长大了一点叻??
可是我还是很active叻!就像个小孩的active咯~
改不掉啦!
来回回我的回忆吧~
可是为什么我的照片看起来以前比现在还成熟啊?
看这张是不是比较成熟过我现在的样子叻?哈哈~奇怪!
我还记得这是我“drunk”的时候叻!
别人喝酒醉我闻酒醉!哈哈哈~是不是好好笑呢?
真的不懂为什么自己那么弱~
可是说真的那时他们和太多不同的酒了~

我还记得这是我一个月数学老师的farewell叻!
她很可爱叻~而且那时候她教书都很像小学老师叻~
可是不错哦~我们都pass了好多哦~
她教书比较容易明白啦~因为她都会用一些图片来教我们哦~
他的用心良苦我们都很珍惜都考得不错咯~

我的老公啊~~想念她!!她是我们班最聪明的女生哦~
她也是坐在我隔壁的哦~每天我不会什么都会问他~
现在不会都不能问他了~
可是哦!我觉得我身边的人都是聪明的叻!
就算我大学朋友也一样~为什么我不是聪明的呢??

大考的前一天~玩翻天啦!!怀念怀念~

哈哈~我考场的墙~破了一个大洞~
可以看透哦~~哈哈,贪玩的我特地去拍的叻~

我班的美女~~

哦!超级想念我班的MCA哦~~
他们每天总是被老师骂不听课可是他们的成绩不赖耶!
不要小看他们哦~~!
我喜欢穿马来校服哦~还记得每天被抓~
因为每天都犯规哦~每天把袖子拉上去~哈哈~我又不喜欢把马来校服的纽扣扣起来~
坏吧?其实并不!很多学生都是这样啊~呵呵~
SPM的最后一天哦~~
我们和我们的数学老师哦~大部分的我们都得到A哦~~
噢!看到这气死了!
他是我们班第二高的男生哦~我推他推不动~而他推我我倒了!!
笑弊了!!〉〈
好了~不要再回到以前了~~
看我现在好像更小孩了啦!!
家人都说我像12岁小孩呢!!
我不是我不是~~
唉~时间过得真快啊!!
这么快我要18岁了!!再一个月我就不能再那么孩子气了~
不想啊~
(我不想我不想不想长大~)
掰掰~

My mood and feeling is like the clouds mix together and separate.
Somehow I feel that I can do it but actually i'm wrong.
I did not be serious in everything I did now.
When I serious to do it and I felt headache ~
Why did I have this kind of feeling?
Before that I do not use a lot of my brain and thinking.
I just want to start of something like that..
I love drawing, but I hate the feeling when I couldn't draw it out nicely.
I'm just keep repeating those mistakes.
I used to be a good artist and now I wanted to be a good designer.
But I just can't get into it.
I can't think of any creative design for my lighting and others..
And yeah, my lecturer just gave me a task..
She gave me a concept too.
And I have to use the concept to join with my topics.
She gave me a concept of ROSE and I have to use my creativity to apply in Rehab Center.
Its slightly hard for me, and I don't really like rehab center though.
Rehab center is for those people who wants to get rid of drugs and more..
So.. i have to very creative thinking now. Aiks.
I did not regret to take this course but I regret to not be smarter.. D:
People just can do something easily and I just stressed with it. Aiks.
My lighting have been rejected by my lecturer.
he said that I have to be more creative in it.
I just created something which is not so amazing or attractive.
A simple light I did but that was the only thing I can thought of that time..
And now he wants us to think of a nice design, a better design, a creative design..
Aiks, my dad sure mad at me.
He is the one who helped me to fix my light bulb and the holder for like an hour.
Now wanted to make a new one is like...
I don't know how to tell my dad now. Ishhh!!

I almost fall in love but I've controlled it.
I wont fall in love with anyone.
Since I have to concentrate on my studies so I just place my Love at the second place. D:
I admit that I'm not a good lover or person which understand love a lot.
I can understand it but I just can't react with it.
AND...
I have a bad feeling when I saw the person.
He is really not my type and I have no idea why did I like him.
I haven't reach the Love stage yet, still in Like stage.
So I decided not to fall in love with him and I don need him to love me too.
I don't want couple but my mind just pop up the image of me and him be together.
It makes me so freaking down when I'm awake.
I don't feel he likes me and he dont even bother about me.
Just hate myself being like this.
I have been emo for like few days because of this.
I couldn't find a best answer why did I like him. ):
I think I'm going back to my secondary time when I fall in love.
That makes me cried a lot.
I don't want to be hurt so I just keep my thing secretly.
And I hope that he wouldn't know anything about it so that I can live better.
I rather be alone but I don't want to lost a friend. (:
I just feel useless now. Not in a good mood too.. ):
It's getting fast and faster..
Very fast, I make my last and final decision also.
I've decided to study Diploma in Interior Design @ Saito College.
It is a small college but the environment is not bad though.
Let's talk about the Saturday until yesterday.
On Saturday was good in the morning.
But suddenly the red one came and I got a lil pain in my throat.
Feeling so uncomfortable and I found it was sore throat.
So I eat the sore throat sweet and thought it would be alright.
But seems like getting worse.
Saturday suppose to go the Show Luo Zhi Xiang's concert with free ticket.
But nobody accompany me to go and I'm feeling so bad mood.
Due to the pain and tiredness makes my mood down.
Then went to D'rich at night for dinner.
Guess what? I saw somebody.
Aha! I saw Ashley Yong at there too.
She was having dinner with her boyfriend.
She is so freaking thin.. XD
Then Sunday morning everyone wake up quite early.
But around 11.30am only we got to go for breakfast HAHA.
It can considered Lunch too.
Then at the afternoon we went to Grandma's house @ Klang.
Sit for a while and brought grandma and the baby to shopping @ Aeon Bkt.Tinggi.
The baby boy was so cute, he just like few months.
Grandma was take caring him.
After that we went dinner together with cousins..
Around 14 people gua, I can't remember how many people there.
But so ngam the restaurant full!
So we have to sit together in a not-so-big table.
After that went home early.
For Monday, it was really crazy day!
I got a lil heavy sick.
I got cough already and flu too.
Mom woke me up at 9.30am.
To go for many places.
Mom took lift for that day.
We went to mom office for a lil while and I take my 12ps passport photos.
8ps for the company and the 3 for college left 1ps.
Then we went to the college for sign up for myself.
So settled with my college @ Saito College.
Made so big decision man!
On the way to Amcorp mall that time, I felt a lil dizzy and like getting fever.
So bought panadol from pharmacy and flu tablet.
Then sis went to the nokia office to re-format her Nokia phone.
After that, I ate those medicine felt better.
Got to Hong Leong Bank @ PJ City.
To meet up Aunt and make HongLeong account.
Had breakfast+lunch at the canteen.
Then head to KL.
Woahh, scary time was really "AHhhhhh" !
In the car I kept reading and reading the books.
Reached Maju Junction for the EXAM.
For this exam, I couldn't disclose here to everyone yet.
I still have to keep secret on what exam I took.
Went for the 100 questions exam using Computer.
Luckily I passed otherwise will be very embarrassing !
Because I'm the young among all whom taking the exam.
Around 4.30pm finished the exam. I got C for that.
Then back to PJ City Hong Leong company.
Back home straight away after taking car.
Three of us just straight lying down on the bed!
We were so tired !
Went for the whole day trip.
And we were rushing here to there and there to here.
Suppose to go clinic for doctor to see my sick.
but we went out late so we din't get to go.
These was my last week.
Sick day! D:
又一次华语的表达我现在的心情。。你知道我现在很犹豫吗?
我不知道要去什么学校,什么课程等等。。
以前都不须我来选课程的,都是老师帮我选的。
我觉得好不想离开高中哦!
没有烦恼的过每一天,每一年。。
最不想拥有的现在就要我决定,我该怎么办啊?
每次想到我的未来就像快疯了一样!
我有梦想可是不是很理想啊!
我想去寻找我的偶像,成为明星。
可是,我不能只向着这个念头走。。
我该找找我的事业,一个能让我父母安心好过的事业。
帮助他们赚大钱!
想成为设计师,可是这工作换在外国就很发达啦,在这里不是很好呢!我要设计衣服,屋内设计,图画设计。。
这都是我喜欢的。那我该往哪走?
哎哟,快爆了啦!!有人能来救救我嘛?
可能再给我一段日子我能做出最好的决定!
希望朋友们,家人和我网友们能给我一些些意见呐!
除了这,我还有一个非常犹豫的事!我的心不知怎么总是想往他那走。。每次看到他,我都会想和他谈天或说说话。。可是就是没有哪个机会和他说声“嗨!”
你看,我有多么的犹豫啊。。不知是不是真的喜欢他了。
希望这只是想和他交好友。。这种感觉很奇怪,就像想看他可是当看到他时就不想了
你们说啊,这是什么感觉啊?对他好感吗?
我听朋友说是我喜欢他,所以会害羞才不想见他或怕他嫌弃我等等。
噢!想起了!有一晚突然梦见他,那个梦非常奇怪也有点色啦!
不说了啦,不然让他知道了我很丢脸咽!
就很突然梦见的啦,应该想念他吧?
Hmmm,还有我也很想念高以翔啊,怎么没他的消息了?他没有新戏剧吗?还是杂志等?
我知道我只能当他的粉丝或他是我的偶像而已,
因为我们的高度和年龄。
如果我是明星那有多好啊,和他见面的机会更大叻!
我一定要努力成为明星和他接触。。^^
♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

如果一个人能快乐点,或许我会一个人努力下去。
如果一句话能做决定,我会说我可以。
如果一天能解决所有问题,我要只呼吸一天。
如果日记里只有一页,我会写满我的感受。
那如果只有一个字,我会写什么呢?
“能”
Oh my godness! I have no idea why I'm being like this.
Although exams coming but Im still watching dramas.
Ah.. you can't force me to study every hour.
So I studied few hours or maybe only an hour then I went to watch drama again.
Hmm, so I too into the drama.
And keep make the same dreams at night.
But suddenly it became a nightmare.
It happened yesterday, after watching the last episode of the drama I went to sleep.
I sleep well at first, after that I woke up because of the drama.
I duno why Im dreaming it and to continue the episode.
Keep thinking and thinking the ending but can't stop.
Then it became headache and even worst I can't close my eyes at all.
Once I close my eyes, I dream of it.
I open my eyes I feel sleepy.
I really don know what should I do.
Then slowly, I slept and woke up around 12 noon.
Exams really near me right now.
Left the 32 hours to study for it.
8.24 right now at the night.
Hmm, I shall study right now and keep studying non stop.
But I really feel so nervous and keep thinking to make the time faster.
I know it's impossible and I have to wait and wait and hardworking.
Oh yeah ya! I suddenly changed my mind, Im studying Sejarah!
Haha, funny right? At first I said Im giving up but now Im continuing.
I think I should start a lil of it so that at least I dont need to leave a blank paper.
Right?
I have nothing to say anymore.
I don wanna talk about family.
So just off right now. Bye and nights!
Wish me good luck ya! :D

