She or He?
11:16:00 AM
I've go through many happenings since I have a relationship.Everyone knows about it, doesn't matter.
I want to be honest now.
I want to be honest now.
I shouldn't lie to anyone else.
It doesn't a good idea to lie to others.
Something or someone change my life.
I've been making my mom angry for few times.
She's hurt, I hurt her..
Why I did to her? Not really a very big deal.
But, she's angry and I'm making trouble for her.
Am I a bad daughter?
Am I a useless daughter?
Am I a useless friend?
Am I a useless children?
Am I a useless girlfriend?
I did feel that, I'm useless!!
My heart is so messy, what should I do?
I should listen to my mom right now.
But I don't want to end the relationship with him.
I really love him and also I love my mom too.
Hard to make decision..
One is my parent, one is my lover.
Parent is forever important than lover, I know.
I really don't want to leave him!
Sometimes I might think to suicide.
I know it's wrong way of thinking.
Really very hard to be a human.
Many things we can't really put down but we have to.
It's hurt sometimes, but I'm always hurt.
Parents is forever the best, I know.
I know he is not that really good boyfriend.
I have no choices, I love him by my feelings.
I follow my feelings, I don't want to hurt myself!
Sometimes I might also selfish.
It's better to care for others then only yourself?
I always did that, but this time I didn't!
I think of myself first but I didn't think of my mom!
Nothing is impossible but not everything is possible.
So should I put down the relationship and go back to my mom's heart?
Yes, is it. I'm back to my original life.
So sorry, my beloved.
Think carefully what u did wrong when I'm not around with u.
Think carefully what u did wrong when I'm not around with u.
You're greedy, you gave me a feeling.
The feeling is like I give u not enough good.
You want many girls around u, right?
You can, but don't do such thing to hurt me!
I'm not a superwoman!
I wanted to be, but not now!!
Did you know what I really want?
Try to ask your friends around you or my bestie.
You look at yourself, what's wrong..
and you look at other guys, whats the different between u and them.
Quite a big different, actually is not the outlook.
Is the way you treat ur lover.
You treat me as invisible so I treat u as invisible too.
Why can't I? You asked me.
I din't ask you why are you being like this.
I'm quite a good girlfriend to you.
I let you freedom and I'm not freedom.
Troubles give me troubles.
Loves give me hurt.
Friendship give me forever.
Family give me the right thing!
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