In a week happened more than twice.
Many incident happened to me.
Included today,
actually planned to do something privately.
But who knows,
my grandmother take up my bag and feel so light.
So, when I was asleep she checked my bag with my mom.
Took my phone for a night.
Not allowed me go to school.
I was so afraid of what happen, what they knew..
The whole night was turning around and around.

The morning wake up,
grandmother turn off the alarm and tell me "you don't need to go to school today"
I was "why?"
She said they knew about that friday ponteng incident.
I was thinking what is it..
and I wanna call him but I can't, I can't borrow a phone.
So when 9 o'clock sharp, I woke up.
I went to mom's room and took my phone.
Then, I read those messages.
After a second, I cried like baby~
I really cried and non-stop.
so the first thing I think of is.. HIM.
therefore, I called him.
After I called him, my brain so empty because I'm crying..
Just want him don't blame himself.
It's all my fault, I choose to do it, I have to accept the punishment by myself!

- you said you implicate me, No u don't.
Please dont think that, don't say sorry to me!
I don't want to heard that, it's not ur fault! please! -

Cried for few hours until the eyes swelling,
so ugly~ Am I ugly now?
I'm not pretty anymore..
The eyes were so pain now, make me headache too.
If I did put some books inside the bag it will be better.
But, why din't I?
Okays, now it's over.
I'm alright, my mom forgived me.
I won't do it anymore, feel so sorry to the god!

Actually today has the lagu patritik competition in school,
teacher asked us to come, Must.
but, I din't attend.
I really don't know what reasons to tell them that I can't get to attend.
I wrote the letter, but it's more bad girl.
I got a bad dream, nightmare yesterday.
I was so afraid of everything, the heartbeat was jumping freaking fast.
So now, I have to study hard don't ever make family dissappointed again.